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Hi, I am new to this forum, although the Health educators know me well as I use the sister sites.

I am here right now to try this program and I have a general concern. I have been on Mirtazipine for about three months and since I was doing well and it makes me sleep so hard and have a hard time waking up, my pdoc thought it would be okay to wean off. He said to see how I feel and rusume taking them if I was noticing negative changes. I may be and I dont want to wait too long. I had an appt to see my therapist today and she was out sick and cant get a appt anytime in the near future with the pdoc. When you have no insurance for the first time in your life, you take what you can get.

Lately, while weaning off I have been very irritable. Today, I have some of the hopeless and fear feelings coming back. I'm not sure if maybe I'm having a bad day or If its the coffee I had, which I know not to and havn't but did or part of quitting smoking. But I dont want to wait too long. I dont want to medicate all my life, I have been working out, eating good and doing a lot, slipping back would be bad. So any imput would be great.

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I'm still working out 3 days a week, I had a great workout yesterday. He said to go back on if I started feeling bad. But I dont want to just start if I is just a bad day and I dont want to wait if I need to. It may be weeks until I can see him, so this is up to me. I dont want meds and I dont want to be where I was a few months back. Its a tough call.

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I just wish I knew if this was a good move. Mirtazipine is also for the panic, although not first line it may help and this issue is no where near resolved. I'm reading about this and I am at a loss. I dont know what to do.

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Nope, its a clinic and hes there on Tues and is so booked I cant even make an appt. I was doing so well and dont want to mess up by waiting too long. I can just start back on them. But do I want to take a chance of a relapse by seeing if I can do it? Or maybe I should go back on them longer, especially in light of my recent other changes. I just dont know if chance it.

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Thanks Goofey, I felt the same way. It's a if it's not broke dont fix it. I could feel myself sliding in a bad direction. So I decided to wean back on. I have been doing so good lately, so it's not worth going backwards.

It may be too soon to do this, so hopefully one day in the near future I can try it again. One other thing I don't like is relying on meds to exist. I was told once to be glad they are there for me when I once questioned it, I just want to be right and to not have to use something to be that way. 

Hopefully that will happen. 

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Thanks to you too Ashley, I know you cant do that, its just nice to have someone to share with to help make a choice. I think better safe than sorry was a good choice. I have only been taking it for about 3 months and I have been doing sooo good as you know. So I may have been pushing it, especially so new in my quit and a lot going on in my life and in my head.

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Well that was a huge mistake. You forget how bad you were when your doing so good. I havnt had the hopeless feelings, blues, fear, etc in quite a while. Im not doing anything I had planned today, I just feel like crap. I slept way in.

I dont lik the mirtazipine cause it make me sleep so hard, SSRI's gave me problems, so I guess I'm stuck with this. I was hoping I could just go without, but something isnt working right.

Too bad too, since my family doesnt believe in meds, since I had problems while on them in the past. I thought I was getting one step closer to going back to them. 

It was working, I think

This is kinda from my first thread I started.  I tried weaning off mirtazipine and after a few days just started feeling bad. I went back on and after 2 days, still am pretty messed up. Slept till 12:30. Didnt do anything I had planned this week, Im a mess.

Strange dreams, hopeless thinking, fear feelings, anxious thoughts are all back, just like that. Why? I just want to be normal and not rely on meds. I always wish I knew what happened to cause all this. A long time ago I used to be able to to anything and I was never on meds. Now if Im not I CANT function. It sucks.

I was at a point where I was doing so well, actually making progress and now Ive had a set back. I know its not the end of the world and in a few days I should be feeling better, but when you have a set back like this its scary.

It was working, I think

It is a good learning experience and I makes me realize how good I was doing. At the same time It bums me out a little that I have to rely on meds to live. I dont like to feel that way, I know a lot of feeling this way was put in my head by family. But they dont know what its like to be the way I am.

If meds can save your life and you cant do it yourself, then I guess you should take them and be glad its available.

I am such a crybaby at times like this, but life is so overwhelming right now. I was so happy at SSC, welcoming the new people, now im whining. I almost embarrased over there right now. I was doing so good.

It was working, I think

They feel you should be able to be strong, to "pull yourself up by your bootstraps"  "be strong" "be a man" "snap out of it" etc. etc etc. and the criteria for going "home" to them is being off meds. In the past there was bad experiences with meds. My first diagnosis after my first panic attack about 8 years ago was the panic and depression. Thus was prescribed SSRI's, after time I resumed alcohol use and the combination was bad, Hence my first diagnosis as bipolar and meds for that which this diagnosis i rejected and stopped taking the mood stabilizer. This created more bad results for me and my family. It was all a mess for a long time, It was a struggle for me and them. So I understand why they have a med issue, but they dont understand the fact that you have to be on the right ones and Its hard to figure that part out. A lot of bad things happened. I never tried to hurt anyone and I love and miss them very much.