Scientists have named this signal the “Involuntary Defeat Strategy” (IDS). It is important because it shows that we no longer want to fight or compete, and that we’re ready to give up or give in.
So this tells me, I am choosing to have depression, that I want to be miserable and hopless. Is that what this sounds like? Maybe people that havnt gone through this should try it before they judge. I hate the way things are and the way I am right now. Why do you feel like giving up, because your enjoying it????????????
OK I was a little intimidated and upset about that. Sorry. I got as far as CBT section. I have read it before and need to re read. Esp. since its hard to concentrate with loud sports on the TV in the background all the time.
Where should I be on the program anyway.
I come here because I have no one. My family isnt there anymore. I was doing better! I want to be up and out, doing things everyday. Have a good job, like I used to have. I dont understand why I cant make myself do the things I used to do! I was capable of so much! No one would belive some of the things I did in my job of 30 years.
Why am I stuck in my self like this, all I want to do is have the strenghth to move forward. Im in a prison in my mind lately and I dont know how to get out of it.
I still dont know what to think, it seems hopeless still. Yesterday I was up by 9 went in to the city, went to a meeting and to the doctor. Raised the mirtazipine back up and added a beta blocker for anxiety. Now today, Im back feeing hopeless, scared etc. didnt get up till after 1:00. Hoe am I going to ever have a life like this, be with my kids again. I was doing better, now im not.
Do I need more time? im 47 and cry! I dont feel like Im in control of my life, I miss my kids.
I dont know what to do, I am scared again.
Getting out of bed hasnt been an issue. Its sleeping in too long that has. It may be the mirtazipine or just the fact that I dont have a will to go on some days.
Ive been on the meds for a while, im just getting back on to the dose that was working and giving it the time.
I tried to go off meds, cause I didnt want to rely on them and I crashed.
