Hi Kara
No one wants to be messed up. Read through as many postings as possible. Your sure to find one that applies to you and you can gain strength from others in the group.
Patrick i feel for sure has missed his vocation and should have qualified as a counsilor! Maybe he's had so many life experiances, you cant get from a book what you experiance 1st hand.
wow Patrick what a life you have lead! You may be in a dark place at times but you cant complain that your life has been boring!
I hope your wife and children can visit you in canada for a holiday before their residance permits arrive. Or maybe you will have to fly back to S,A, to visit them. 6 months is a long time to be without your loved ones.
Good luck all.
Hi patrick,
Have tried and tried to access the im. husband also tried. all my pop up blockers are off.
have tried through netscape, firefox, safari. all just wont let me proceed and i cant even read your message. There has to be a way I can chat with you guys. Trying to be positive and pro active but coming up against brick walls at every turn. Just nothing is working. The damn medication, 1st available appointment with my N.H.S Dr 4 weeks time, how unhelpful is that! Dont know where to turn next. Just cant get out of the house, panic sets in at every oppertunity. Have got out of my bed this morning with such difficulty but am up but want to crawl back there so dont feel the sweats and panic as much.
Have many phone calls to make today and cant even face the 1st one. No one would understand me through the sobs. what a mess. x
You and me both patrick!
cant get the thing to work for me at all.
Seem to just be able to get myself motivated enough to post and view stuff but i know to most people the time is out of wack with the u.k apart from yourself.
Terrified this mornig. Have to go out. 1st time driving for a while. thee panics and sweats wont stop. Have to collect my meds from the supermarket. sounds silly but its such a big challenge. shop too large, too many people and I will have to stand and wait. the thought of passing out in front of people is making the panic worse. i have to do this. Small step but to me its huge.
Would love to get on the im. the litlle messenger box pops up but then nothing, cant get into it at all. x
Hi Lady,
Im sick of the depression too.
Instead of the ticking off you feel you had, i would like to congratulate you on having a tear free day yesterday. Not having 7 days clear to many people would be magic.
i know thats not what you want to hear right now as if your feeling down, dissapointed in the low today and just generally sick to death of this illness thats how your feeling, but try not to be too hard on yourself.
My achievement for today was I left the house to pick up my meds!
Baby steps have just walked in shattered but pleased that i achieved that only to be confronted by the very real feeling that it wasnt enough. The house is in a real, real mess. That gets me down. Maybe i should have tried to tackle the ever growing washing pile. I havent opened letters, mainly bills for 4 weeks, instead of daily dealing it has now become a mammoth task that i really cant face.
i hate myself for it.
Found a support group locally but am just out of their catchment area so cant join. The lady on the phone was so lovely that that made me cry.
How did you refuse to let things get you down yesterday? that took great strength and it worked.
Face tomorrow or even this evening with that same determination. please share how you did this.
Good luck lady, keep posting, you really are doing so well, looking back at your other posts you have come a long way. x
Hi Dumpling,
Have clicked to add to the buddy list but dont think i'm even showing up as being on line. Its so frustrating
Will try husbands P.C when he gets home from work, usually 7pm GMT and see if its my mac computer but dont think so.
taken 2mg diazapam half hour ago, panic seems to be subsiding but I dont want to get hooked on these now.
So many meds and I know I'Ve made things a whole lot worse by stopping them all at once. How blooming stupid oof me but mind was crazed.
Have only returned to the lofepramine and diazepam. Putting up with the intense pain until I see the spinal surgeon. Although its dreadful the head thing scares me more. Can handle most things if you can think straight.
Have actually prepared dinner for tonight, something so simple as a pasta bolognese but at least it was the onions making me cry.
hope hubby will be pleased. Bet he wont notice the differance to a microwave meal thats the joke, anyhow i know how much effort it took.
Had to go buy something while i was waiting for my meds!
What a life hey, I used to rate my acheivments by how much i could raise for charity, running a marathon and trying to be the perfect housewife, Mum and hold down a job. Now I'm chuffed if i can get up and showered and make a simple pasta.
My own mother was a superwoman all her life.
Fantastic career, Strong and fun till the day she died.
It was those things I wanted to be to my family.
What went wrong?
will try again and again to im.x
Well done lady, you stay right up there and when the low starts to creep up just read back this post and remind yourself why you are so valued and special. x
NO! but I do have a bright blue box with your name at the top but cant read any messages or type one on it. driving me even crazier than i am alredy. x Further forward than i was thoughh at least I have the box and name
Well it appears it is my computer not letting me use im
just tried on my husbands and saw my buddies and your mesages!
Will try to persuade him to leave his behind tomorrow so i can try
will check back around 9pm GMT to see if any of you are around.
Feel worn out as been hours on here but strangley HAPPY. x
well i seem to be on line and I think i've sent a message but how do
I see the reply does it just pop up?
Having a job with this p.c. very different from my mac but at least i'm in
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