Mom of 3,
I know you probably know - so just a reminder - don't expect great miracles on the first visit. Hopefully, it will result in some homework and things that you can try. Be sure to mention that you are working a CBT program. Though there are not alot of people trained (it seems) as CBT therapists, most are aware of it and can incorporate what you are doing here, with what you are doing there. A lot of the first session will be about what is going on in your life. Hopefully, laying it all on the table, being honest and forthcoming will help you get through to the next session.
Ah ha, I'm not the only one that perceives that strength! So it must be true!
Mom of 3, we have to quit trying to be all, do all to everyone. My psychiatrist gave me a presciption of "no's". I can get it refilled as often as necessary. If it isn't life threatening, then I can say "no". I don't use them as much as I need to, but I'm getting better at it. If I think about my priorities - ME, then I can say no more often. Because if I don't have ME, then I can't take care of anyone/anything else.
Opinion: Thinking someone is going to understand us, our thoughts, our issues, our intracacies seems to me to be unrealistic. There is no way we can show our insides on the outsides or as the saying goes "walk another mile in someone else's shoes". However, learning to take care of you, knowing yourself, knowing what works for you - takes care of YOU, is much more important than anyone else understanding you.
Sometimes we have to pretend, and when the energy starts to pretend starts to run out - then it's time to stop, look and listen
so that we can regroup and take care of ourselves.
I am picturing you in a plane, on auto pilot, with the skills, knowledge are resources to take over the controls when the turbulance begins.
Hang in there Mom of 3, here for you!