Emotional Quotient
Hi Ashley,
Thanks for your reply. I am a reserved person, its amazing that I
could open up to people I dont even know :). I guess every one wants to
be treated per their age and with respect. I am 30. Yes.m that old n m
the youngest in my family. my depression stems from genuine serious
factors, all the same if the people around me could just give me a
chance I could really do better. I am slow, I was neglected, have been
over protected, given less responsibilities, bullied by my elders
(typical- they do love me though), and suddenly one day I find myself on
my own in the real world outside my cocoon. Couldnt handle what came my
way and was majorly defeated. One of the reasons for my low self
esteem is because of the way I am treated by my mom who I stay with and I
carry this behaviourial thought with me even to work. - its a lot
more complex then what I can write.
When I reread my post above, it looks like this is so common, so
normal, its like so much melodrama- I am suffering for real, even if
psychological. Most of my losses were because of the way I think and
behave.I know its all emotions but there;s lil have been able to do.
My EQ was pretty high before I was hit with depression - I had
taken an EQ test before and retook it recently where I scored lower. So I
thought depression and EQ would be linked. I was looking specifically
for emotional maturity quotient (I think mature people dont do silly
mistakes and are serious, responsible and reliable) cause I sense a lot
more change in my behaviour now against pre-depression time. I cant
think deep like before when I was more analytical.
I dont know how to present myself to be treated differently. I
guess, maybe gather more knowldge about current affairs, but then I
cannot remmeber much. I read articles how mature people are, copycat
elders/seniors around me but its fake after all. This should come to me
automatically.
Any suggestions?