I thought I was such a loser and undoubtedly alone in this 'sneak' behavior. It's hard to believe that I have become such a slave to nicotine that I was willing to twist or deny the facts just to keep defending my smokes! Eye opening and not flattering! My lungs feel crispy today and are rattling; coughing too and basically feel spaced out and like crap. Baggy eyes & look worse than I feel. Sigh! But funny -am a bit proud of my true 'cold turkey quit' so far today. NOPE from now on! I feel like I have missed meeting someone incredible with your good friend MM - am so sorry to hear of her passing so young. May her quitting spirit live on here! 
