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15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

New Here

I am 37 years old, off and on smoker for over 16 years, quit once for over a year, once for over three months, this is my 3rd serious attempt. I threw away all of my cigs yesterday (without smoking) so this is my second smoke free day. I'm itching for one now and decided it was time to post here!

The hardest part of being an addict is that I can be disgusted and sick with myself and my habit, and still not be able to quit. It's also coming to the realization that one puff will never be enough. If I take one puff, I'm a smoker again. That's not who I want to be. I don't want to stink, have yellow teeth, bad skin, bad circulation, or die a premature death. I want to see my kids grow up and hold my grandchildren.

And I want to live up to my full potential. Smoking makes me lazy. It gives me excuses for my inactivity and lack of productivity.

Sorry to ramble on, just thinking out loud. Thanks for your help.

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

New Here

Wow! Thank you so much all of you. You are all truly inspiring! In answer to your questions, I'm going cold turkey. For two main reasons, #1 I can never remember to take meds regularly, and #2 I thought the quickest way to do this would be no NRT.

I'm trying to force myself into new "normalcy". Does that make sense? I'm a stay-at-home-mom (or as Tresa put it - a domestic goddess). My escape has always been to read and smoke on my patio/porch. The combination of these made for the sweetest past-time on earth and a perfect escape from my hectic life. After all, the kids could never come out and join because I didn't want them around the smoke. My husband is a smokeless tobacco man, so he never really wanted to be outside. It was total, indulgent me time.

On the flip side of the bliss, I chain smoked the entire time. And in the name of "needing my fix", I spent more and more time outside. It turned from being a nice escape to neglecting life. I was wheezing and hacking to boot. Not to mention my kids saw it all.

So now I'm cold turkey. Forcing myself to post online, or do laundry, or sweep the floor when I'm craving. I'm trying to force myself to work through the nervousness and the irritability (and boy am I irritable) very, very quickly. I want a new normal as soon as possible.

Thank you again for listening. It's really funny, this need to talk about all aspects of it.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 1
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 12
Amount Saved: $5.28
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 3 Mins: 11 Seconds: 2

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

Write it down!

I've always heard that journaling can help with so many aspects of your life. I've personally never made a strong attempt because a) I forget to journal and b) it kind of scares me. Almost like you're laying it all out there for the world to see - even if you're the only one doing the looking.

I think I'll try keeping a notebook beside the computer (since it's now my go-to instead of outdoors with a pack of smokes). I can make short notes throughout the day. Couldn't hurt right?

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 1
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 12
Amount Saved: $5.28
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 4 Mins: 4 Seconds: 50

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

Trying again - 2nd day!

Freespirit - I agree that a pub with friends and alcohol would be a huge temptation. It would be too much for me to stand. I'm a bit nervous about having a drink in my own home tonight because I know the craving will be massive. Luckily, unless I cab it, I can't run out to get a pack. Don't set yourself up for failure. Try to stay away from the pit fall places until you get stronger and more sure of your response.

Good luck to you! I'm new too. Not much I wouldn't do for a cigarette right now (just got through eating), but I'm here typing instead. You're not alone.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 2
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 24
Amount Saved: $10.56
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 4 Mins: 32 Seconds: 5

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

I'm really hurting right now...

Goofy has a great suggestion of coming here, posting an waiting for a response before going for a cig. I'm craving a smoke right now - probably the worst since I quit. Just wondering if anyone was out there right now?

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 5
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $26.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 11 Mins: 5 Seconds: 27

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

I'm really hurting right now...

I'm so sorry to leave everyone hanging. After I posted here, I got help from a different source. My 4 yr old woke up with a raging fever. I was up with her for most of the night (it was night time here). I was too busy taking care of her and dozing in between to worry about smoking! Having sick kids did me a favor.

Can't tell you how much I appreciate all of your support! I knew that when I logged on today I would have quite a few replies and some anxious messages worrying that I fell off the wagon. Last night was the closest I've come to smoking this week.

But now have to run and take the two healthy ones off to school. Thanks again! You are all so awesome!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 5
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $26.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 12 Mins: 2 Seconds: 33

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

I did it!!!!!! I didn't smoke!!!

Congratulations Jazz!!!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 5
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $26.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 12 Mins: 7 Seconds: 20

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

A Summer Duffism

Thank you to all of the "oldies" (and I say that in quit day terms!!!) from a new quitter. It has been really surprising to me the number of you who still check in on and support people like me who are barely out of the gate.

I appreciate your time and kind words.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 5
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $26.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 12 Mins: 7 Seconds: 46

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

The demon calls....

CD - that is one ugly cat! Congrats on your 50 days!!!!!! What's your reward?

I like cats too. Taste like chicken.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 5
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $26.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 12 Mins: 8 Seconds: 10

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 355

Right Direction

I'm sure there is some famous quote out there about the strength and courage that show themselves when we are knocked down, get back on your feet and are able to keep moving forward. Of course I wouldn't know what that quote is...but you get the idea.

It is very courageous of you to start fresh after disappointing yourself (because we disappoint ourselves more than anyone else). But with your strength, you will succeed. Good luck on your new quit!

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 8/20/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 5
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $26.40
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 12 Mins: 9 Seconds: 41

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