Stifling your emotions - the forgotten symptom
There are many, many reasons why people smoke. Some of us (me included) smoke to cover up issues that we don't want to face. I smoked to shut out things I felt unsure how to handle or unwilling to handle. And truthfully, if my chest hadn't started feeling like an elephant stood on it, I don't know if I would have thought to quit. Silly. But this quit hasn't been about fighting nicotine addiction as much as it's been about self-discovery, finding steady ground and becoming strong.
Todash - once again you've got me crying. I think I relate so well to your posts because there are sooo many similarities. Our stories aren't exactly the same. Mine is mine and yours is yours. But the self destructive results are the same. (And how freaky is it that I've had those same in my head arguments?)
This was touched on in another post. Someone (maybe Rock maybe Karren? who?) said that my quit was for me. And they were so right. I'm not a self-disciplined person. I'm not a decisive person. And while I've been known to make many a selfish decision in my life, they seem to have all revolved around someone else. But my quit is mine!! It's my decision, my health, my life. Going through this, your focus shifts from your work, your family, your friends....to yourself. You realize that you are strong, and you are good and you are capable. Then people here help you remember that you will do it and you are worth it. Not because you're someone's parent or child, friend or employee....just because you are you.
It's really quite a heady feeling.
AC
My Milage:My Quit Date: 12/30/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 108
Amount Saved: $47.52
Life Gained:Days: 0
Hrs: 21
Mins: 8
Seconds: 20
Also, Dark Chocolate all the way. Milk chocolate is for sissies. LOL
