Pinky, I sympathize with you and your struggle between the desire for privacy--totally natural and understandable--and the desire to seek outside support. I went to a few AA meetings one of the times that I quit drinking with the encouragement of my then husband. I lived in a big city then. People were welcoming and very supportive, but I felt out of place. My drinking problems were really small compared to what I was hearing from others. I stopped drinking with my husband's support and the support of our marriage counselor. So I did have support. Support and genuine understanding is essential. When I got sober (it lasted for almost a year), I realized I needed to end my marriage. My former husband then tried to sabotage my relationship with my children by making my personal struggles with alcohol a public matter. He said I was an admitted alcoholic. I shouldn't have custody of my children. His betrayal hurt more than words can express and affected me deeply. Now, six years later and trying to get sober again, I'm skittish about ANY public declarations. I have serious trust issues. That's why I'm here on this website. I live in a small town now. I don't want to do AA. I'm not going to be anonymous there. I don't want to talk to my friends or family. I know my perspective isn't a wise perspective, but there it is. It's a product of my life and experiences, and it's where I'm at. At least I'm here. Baby steps. I'm rooting for you!
Seriously, you have come to a good place to get help. Like Tiana said, you already have taken the first couple of steps toward sobriety just by wanting to get there, finding this site, and getting started interacting with members and using your toolbox. That's a great start. What comes next for you? 
