understanding anxiety
I feel more anxious on Monday than any other week day.Monday,the start day of work is very difficult for me in comparison to other days.My anxiety is highest on Monday and is least on Saturday.Sunday is always a good day for me as far as I remember.Its all due to work pressures in profession where there is peer pressure to perform in limited time.It still exist in me after leaving my job.
I nowadays have a good control on my anxiety.Thoughts & other negative feelings are in control.
Anxiety as I felt is like a computer malware/virus.It increases exponentially wrt time giving no time to control yourself.All measures then go in vain when there is anxiety attack.It all happens when any situation goes against me.Anxiety is not like for a short period or for a limited time.It remained there,continues thereafter;disturbed me;confused me;degraded me and finally I quit from my good job.
I am now living a good life with my family,working on a low salary work;My social status seemed to be gone.
I now fear from going back again to a more responsible job.The fear is still here and till present I am not able to overcome it.I feel I have now compromise with anxiety.Its like flight situation for me.I fight for 8 years in my different roles & jobs.I saw more bad days and less good days.Now I am in my hometown doing a job of low salary;living a good life with my parents & family.
But every morning when I wake up I do not forget to curse myself at least once .Scolding myself for my unsuccess & anxiety.The compromise I made up with my anxiety.What can I do else then? Feels left with no option due to anxiety.
Just a thought I wanted to share with u all.
rohit131