hi orel,
I can so relate to your distress. I have quit many many times over the past two years, spent countless amount of money, tried everything possible including accupuncture, nicorette, holistic healing techniques in Israel, and just pure willpower. All this and I could not stay quit for more than a few days. I felt shame, lots of shame. And then I realized...I AM AN ADDICT!!!!!! Wow. That was some realization.
And so, I continue to try because I know that eventually something will click and I will quit...just like the last time I quit for six years (can you believe I started again. I've aeen at it again for four years and I'm going to quit again).
So easy to forget breathing techniques and other tools when in the midst of craving....but it can be done...I did it once for six years. Keep trying until one day it will click. I know it will for me, and I know that if you keep trying, it will for you too.
Don't be hard on yourself because that only creates more stress and makes that smoke seem more desirable. You do deserve to quit, but you also deserve compassion from yourself in the process.
Trust in your higher self and in spirit.
healthystar[color=Maroon]Text[/color]
