penquin,
I read this thread and I was very concerned that you had relapsed since you hadn't replied recently to the other posts here. Then I saw that you posted to my 11 month anny thread and your meter showed 1 day quit.. with a quit date of 4/14. Congratulations on getting back on the wagon.
Quitting is all about attitude, and to a large degree, character. Those with the right attitude, who display the proper character traits, generally are you successful quitters. Quitting isn't a game, it's not about obsessing about your quit, it isn't about catchy phrases or the SSC. It's about a lifestyle change that you undertake to rebuild your life in a manner that is free from the addiction to nicotine.
Your slips are caused by a number of factors on the outside, but inside they are really only caused by the simple lack of commitment. At least that is how I see it. When you are completely commitmented to something, anything, then no amount of temptation will cause you to lose your focus. Smokers tend to call it junkie thinking. That's as good a title for it as any I suppose. In reality, you are questioning your commitment to your quit and you rationalize smoking.
Clear your mind. Revaluate your quit and what it means to you. Accept your new, smoke free life as a second chance at life. Be proud of your quit. Never envy a smoker for they are nothing more than addicts who are enslaved to their addictions. Be at peace with yourself. This is your new life you are building for yourself. Relish it.
Best wishes.
[b][color=Purple]Be Strong. Be Smart. Be Quit[/color]
[color=black]Joe[/color]
[size=3][color=Blue]Knowledge Replaces Fear[/color][/size]
[size=2][color=purple]Hoping for success without hard work is like trying to harvest without planting.[/color][/size]
[size=2][color=black]Illegitimus non carborundum est[/color][/size][/b]
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/15/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 336
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,409
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $823.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 58 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15
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Quit Meter
$36,688.80
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 9429
Hours: 10
Minutes: 37
Seconds: 23
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45861
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
366,888
Cigarettes Not Smoked
