Thanks Hugs4u and it could turn out that I may keep seeing both of them if they do complement each other.  The one I saw today for 2nd time is only every other Saturday yet right now I need more than that in my state, so that's the reason I returned the call of another therapist who had called a coupla weeks ago.  When she said she was very close to my home and had appts. as late as 8 p.m. 3 nights a week, I thought that could be good as well.  Could just alternate with seeing them weekly.

 

As much as I like my primary doctor and have been seeing him for some time now, I'm a bit disappointed that 1st visit with him last month for anxiety, one of meds. he prescribed for me is a beta blocker and even worded the prescription to say for treating anxiety.  It doesn't and even pharmacists said it doesn't so only thing that helped was the Klonopin he also prescribed.  After 1st ER visit & hospital stay, called him back asking for something longer term & he prescribed Paxil, which the pharmacist consulted with me when I picked it up saying it could have interraction with the Metoprolol (beta blocker) of heart palpitations.  Just what I need......heart palpitations with severe anxiety.  Told him on Thurs. visit that the Metoprolol did nothing for my anxiety and what pharmacist said so I wouldn't take the Paxil for that reason.  He took me off the Metoprolol and said for me to give the Paxil try and that I may find it could make a world of difference.  A doctor at last ER visit said I need to have one central doctor to go to to discuss all my meds. and I am thinking that could be the psychiatrist as they would have more knowledge on meds. for anxiety, and interractions with other drugs, than my primary doctor.

 

 

Vincenza,

 

Well I managed to be out one of the days due to a female issue that came along and caused too much pain to go into work, but it's hard to put my finger on any particular thing other than the CBT I've just started using on here.  I'm only up to the negative thoughts section but what I've read and learned so far is slowly starting to kick in.  I'm still a long ways off as this is the worst in my life that my anxiety has ever been, especially so out of control, but it is helping.  Just reading and posting on here with the support has helped as well.  I did have a mild case of anxiety Thurs. afternoon where some of my co-workers had come to my desk to see what was wrong as to why I missed a meeting.  I believe it has been the 2 episodes of having paramedics called to work for my attacks (one with overnight stay in hospital) that made them realize just how serious my condition is so they seem to be on alert to look out for me.  I was sitting at my desk trying to remember the thing on the panic cycle and trying not to let my sensations go over to another one of the other 2 in the cycle, telling my co-workers I had a followup visit with my primary doctor who I first saw this year about my anxiety and I wasn't sure if I could even drive there.  They said I should not be driving in my condition so I was driven there to my appt. Not only that but because my car was low on gas due to being too anxious to stop to get gas after work this week, my co-worker dropped me off right at the front door at the doctor's, went to put gas in my car, then came back to the doctor's with another co-worker (to drive her home) to wait for me when I got out.  I was moved to tears as before I was feeling as if nobody at work even understood what I was going through and some of the well meaning advice they tried to give to me just doesn't work with someone with extreme anxiety.  Like I said, the 2 incidents were the wakeup call to them that I am in a very bad state right now.  A few of them already know that most of my friends abandoned me last year after I herniated my disc, then had surgery so they know I have no social outlets whatsoever for support.  Just here and Facebook and the few occasions when my roommate comes out of her room for the rare talking spells.  Anyway, I was at least able to keep things under control enough to not need paramedics but it was nice to know they cared enough to drive me to my doctor's appt.

 

I will have to wait and see with the 2 therapists.  Yesterday was only 1st visit with one so just evaluation.  I almost didn't make it there due to a fast HR that brought on amxiety.  Was a bit late but just having an ear to listen as I gave her my history helped calm me down.  Today was 2nd visit with other therapist and after telling her about this site and doing the CBT, she stated that she does that and did a little of it with me today.  Today was 1st day of starting the Paxil so I was nervous on how I would react to that.  My son said when he took it last year gave him diarrhea, so he had to change meds. but I was concerned it would happen to me and I had this therapy appt.  Not sure what to think of the Paxil, feel a tad edgy yet a tad calm......very weird feeling and feeling wide awake as if I may be up most of the night.  Reason I wanted to try it over the weekend to keep from interferring with me getting to work if any unpleasant side effects.  Thanks for the well wishes.  I really love this site and the people on here.

 

Donna

 

 

Nc,

As V says, unless they complement each other or one is a specialist, it's hard to be in such a process, since personal growth is, trite as it sounds, a "holistic" process.

 

The analogy is that a general physician is usally the facilitator of your overall treatment, but if you just saw your specialists, there would be an important connecting person missing, and you can't be treated in pieces.  It's the same with our minds/psyches...although sometimes we feel we're in pieces

Hi Donna, 

 

Happy Saturday morning!  Glad to hear you made it through a stressful week at work.  What did you find helped you keep your calm through the added pressure of having upper management present all week?

 

I think it's a great idea to see a few therapists in order to find one that you connect best with.  I hope it goes well and that you have a good experience with him/her.  I wish you well on your journey to health and managing your anxiety!  Let us know how your sessions go!

Well after a pretty tough week of dealing with our upper management from CA being in this week and being intimidated by that, I somehow made it through this week without another embarrasing episode of having the paramedics be called at work for one of my attacks.  I believe part of my increased anxiety this week was fear of having an attack and making an embarrasment not only of me but for my entire team.  As the email from our manager reminded us was to show some professionalism while upper management was here this week.  I kept thinking to my self "Please don't let me mess up and embarrass our team."  Top that with the fact that I came close to losing my job year before last due to getting on this site manager's so-called list and it's hard to get off of it once you're on.  After all last year of battling a herniated disc, then reherniation, then surgery of where I was in and out of work and now I am back full time suffering severe anxiety, the Lord must truly have His hand of protection on me as I can't explain any other reason as to why I still have a job there.

 

I also went to see a 2nd therapist Friday night and will still see the other one on Saturday so maybe I can get an idea of which one will be best for me.  Anyone else ever see multiple therapists to choose which was the best?  Also have an appt. with a psychiatrist next week on Thursday to start that process of evaluation and have them manage my medications.

 

Donna