Hey Doreen: You sound just about what I used to be like! I say used to be because I don't get panic attacks like that anymore. You can get better Doreen, this site, CBT is the best. I hope you stay with the site long enough to get through all the chapters. Don't give up. Hang in there. This is a place where you will be understood...imagine that! When I had my panic attacks, there was nothing available. We hear you and this site is very friendly and encouraging. Hope to hear from you again. p.s. you can rant and rave as much as you want. Feels good.