Hi Lore,
First let me say welcome back to the forums, Second I would like to tell you what a strong person you are
to have been through so much! I understand what you went through being married to someone in the service
as I had a brother who was in the army years ago and I lived with him for awhile so I saw alot! It is not an easy
life to adjust to, but you can not blame yourself for your husband not wanting to work on your marriage.
Count this as his loss!!! Now is the time for you to work on yourself for YOU! Anxiety has a way of damaging
our self esteem, so give yourself permission to love and nurture you, as you are worth it! And then with the program
you can work on the things you want to achieve! I know that you will be able to go out again and do things
you want and with confidence as you have the drive and strength to do so! so hang in their and keep the faith.