Hello Lorlee! What a beautiful post. I love the way you expressed how it feel to find this site! It sounded so true and very poetic. Anyway, i am Diva, you will find me often on this forum. Feel free to add me to your CBT buddy chat list by clicking the button add buddy lolI just wanted to say hello and to say welcome to this site.
On this site i have found help, a place to ask questions, answers, cherring, ecouragement, understanding and comfort. I hope you get as much out of it as i have. I have been working the program for two weeks now and i find it really good (from what i have seen lol) The information they give you is great!
I also wanted to tell you i know how you feel to a certain extent. I also found this site because of a relapse. I was diagnosed over 15 years ago when i was well in my teens. I was diagnosed with GAD and Panic disorder with agoraphobia among other things. And i got therapy and eventualy got better. In the last i would say oh four years i was doing so great. Working, going to school, having fun being happy, no medication and then BAM! all theese different stressors started pilling up and i cracked and ended up relapsing. And i figure it is ok, so i relapsed. At first i was angry at myself, then i was sad, then i was sad and mad at the world. then i developped my new philosophy which is this: A relapse is just another challenge. Another bump in the road. And if i dont give it power it wont have any and i will take its power for myself.
Sorry i am rambling, i do that a lot. anyway, all this to say you are not alone and that i understand how bad it is to relapse. And that here on this site you will find tons of people going through what you are going through who will understand you and care.
Welcome to the forums and i hope to hear more from you!!!
-Diva
