Kingie, I can relate. Since promising myself in June I would moderate and drastically reduce, I have had two major slip ups. On Saturday I got 'black out' and had a one night stand. This is particularly difficult because I'm in a new and healthy relationship and am struggling with self-destruction. This year I have learned the practice of self-compassion and will forgive myself for this and learn from it. Try writing down what you learned, so that you can assure yourself your slip was not in vain. Good luck!