I've been on the beta blocker Inderal and Xanax for over 15 years. The 2 of them together worked miracles for a long time. In the past 2-3 months I've been waking up with my heart pounding, but I didn't feel like I was having a panic attack, so I assumed it really was my heart this time, combined with the fact that I just turned the big 5-0. So in the past 3 weeks, I had the 24 hour holter, a thyroid scan, and an echocardiogram. I went for my follow up yesterday for all these tests and my cardiologist found NOTHING!
I know the symptoms are there, and I'm thinking that even all the ER doctors plus my cardiologist have to be wrong. Especially since even after all the tests and reassurances, I woke up with my heart racing and pounding again just less than 3 hours ago. I don't feel panicky, I just feel my heart pounding in my chest. My pulse is 78, and my common sense tells me nothing is wrong, but dang! Anyhow, the doctor says I'm just more in tune with the changes of my heart than the average person and told me to go take a trip to Florida, which I've been putting off because of all this. Now I have no excuses. He's not changing any of my meds. Anyway, I know what you're feeling and if I had my panic attacks with it, I'd be a mess. So anyway, nothing is wrong with me. I'm telling myself that over and over, and I told myself that if these tests came back negative, I'd no longer worry about pounding racing heart. I'm finding out it's a bit more difficult to ignore than I thought. Surely they missed something, yes? When I'm dead, I can't say "I told you so". So maybe it's a conspiracy. All the doctors have gotten together and conferred, and are telling "Vikkee" she's okay so she doesn't worry. Now, I'm just being silly, aren't I?
So I'm leaving for Florida in a few days, and I WILL fight these feelings. And I WILL not let this stop me from living anymore. I don't think there's much else to do but pray to get me through these times.
I've got to stop living to die, but live to live another day. I think I can. I think we all can. Good luck!
