Hi, I'm Trudy and this is my first day at this site. I've smoked for over 30 years and want to quit-Today. I have two cigarettes left,I used to buy by the carton but I will not buy any today.I'm so scared right now but at the same time excited.I'm glad that I found this site and feel that this time I have a great chance of becoming a non-smoker.Back in the mid 1980's I quit smoking for almost 6 months,I could feel myself slowing being drawn back to cigarettes but didn't want to go there and was desperately trying not to get sucked back to that life. It was as if something evil had hold of me and I was getting weaker and weaker. I checked the Yellow Pages for help and called the American Cancer Society, the American Lung Assoc. and as many others that I could to get some support. I practically begged for a support group of sorts that could lend some encouragement only to be told that "we don't have anything like that-why don't you start a support group yourself". How can one save others when they themselves are drowning? Needless to say, here I am 20years later. I just smoked my last cigarette. I will not buy cigarettes today. Once again, I am very glad to have found this sight, I think I will need alot of support and willpower for awhile but expect that in the future I can help others as well. Sorry about the long whiny post. Did I mention that I just put out my last cigarette? I am now a non-smoker.I'm terrified and excited.