Stasi,
Welcome,
Some great books offering solace around grieving that I’ve read are: “H is For Hawk”(Helen Mcdonald);The Lonely City(Olivia Laing);”They Left Us Everything” by Plum Johnson. They’re good writers and echoed my many feelings.
A current movie recommended was “Manchester by the Sea”, although it’s about a sibling death. I forgot the other current movie, but it would help to get out.