I finally have my answer
Dear Mom of 3, Have been hesistant to say anything, because I really didn't know what to say. wish you could find some way to distract your mind for awhile, but I know how difficult that can be because I have been there. The one thing I will tell you is that there is HOPE! There is always HOPE! Things may not turn out the way you anticipate, but they may turn out better for you in the long run. You didn't think you would be where you are now did you? Well things have just as much chance to turn out for the better as they do for the worse. So HANG in there! You really don't know what is around the corner and that is very scary, but it might be GOOD! The one thing that I helped me was doing some things for others, it made me feel good, it made me realize that I wasn't the only one going thru hard times and it always seems to come back to you.
I will give you an example, we recieved a Christmas food package from our church,because I am unemployed, big ham, 2 big shopping bags full of food, it was very thoughtful and made us feel good. However, my wife's sister is on disability and now has her 18 year old son(unemployed), his girl friend and their 3 yearold daughter living with her. So we decided that since we were doing ok, we would give it to her. Needless to say, she was extremely grateful and I will tell you it really helped me, because even if I wasn't able to help myself, I was able to do something,by helping someone else. The thing is a week later, my wife comes home with a couple hundred dollars in gift cards they gave her from work to help us get thru. So we ended up getting more than we gave.
So you never know what will happens. Please take solace in the fact that you have alot of friends here, praying for you, thinking about you and rooting for you. We will do what we can to help, so you are not alone! Hope this helps some.
