Davit, I love this post of yours. You explained it very well.
For me, I have A LOT of ideals.. I am known as the girl of ideals... and that is probably what bites me so much. But I never really realized this until recently and I feel like just from this realization, I am learning to let go and accept that my ideals may differ from what is real. I realized how I had so much standards and how things SHOULD be this way or that. I should be like this or that... but never really paid attention what I really was, because I was so focused on what I should be. Now, I still SHOULD, but to the point where I can balance things.. this is what I'm trying to work on now.
I realize I need to drop my expecting to accepting... so I can balance them both out.
Hi Momsydoo,
I've read in a book where it talked about the survival of the fittest. The book said that that theory is not so accurate as much as people quote it because if the lion were the strongest of the animal kingdom, no zeebras or antelopes would be existing now. The zeebras and antelopes develope different tactics to survive and persevere in the wilderness. They may not be as 'strong' as the meat eaters but they pay attention to the details to keep their existence. Contrary to the lion, the zeebra needs to pay attention to their 'weakness' to be stronger. I sometimes think that the 'weak' are stronger than the 'strong'.
Hi Shadowkins,
I'm always joking with my sister about how our whole family is a control freak. That is our inside joke word. We have trouble with surprizes. I need everything in my visual distance! But I'm learning to work on that now too. I think medication helps us close our eyes, definately. That's why it's good (sometimes)because even if we can see everything, it doesn't mean we'll really know what to do with it.
Just like all of you have mentioned, I took care of a lot of other people besides myself, and I still have that habit too. And if I don't take care of them, I used to kill myself with the guilt. So, I'm learning to put me first now too, and it's hard cuz I'm not so used to it either.
I'm a hypochondriac too. I think that is why I have anxiety all the time because I'm worried when and what will kill me. The slightest change in my body (if the weather is cold/ hot) I anticipate what is wrong with me and I become obsessed with it. But thank goodness, I'm learning about myself everyday and I feel not as afraid as before. I still am but less. I hope you find comfort here as I have. Nice to meet you.
My dream is similar to all of yours. I dream about having my own cruise ship and RV and I'd travel all around the world with them. There would be no time limit, money issues, health issues. Maybe spread the word about disorders as I go along through art, etc.
I've written many letters that are not meant to be read. I've written many to myself and many to the people of my past, etc. I may need to do it again. I usually journal and that is one way I relieve my worries. I've also written a letter to the future me, that I'd be reading in 10 years
I did it again. I was able to go on the freeway again. Again, I wasn't driving, but sitting in a car was so difficult for me in the past but now I can sit in it and be a few miles away from home. This time, I was a little more nervous and I had some doubt that I would make it... but I was proven wrong! I took my anxious thoughts forms with me but I didn't even need to fill them out. I still have a long way to go... to get to my ultimate goal of getting somewhere alone, but this is a huge step for me. I'm happy.
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