Hello Dazed Mommy , thankyou for the lovely reply :) . Means alot .
My history , ive sat back anf thought about this so hard to pin point when ! I guess ive always been an anxious person . Do everything at break neck speed ( you never seen anyone peel spuds so fast in your life lol) . I cant do things slowly whats-so-ever .
If i try to relax or go to bed then im planning tomorrows dinner , thinking what kid needs what and when ( i have 5 , although 2 are grown up i have 3 littlies).
My first panic attack happened May 2006 . I was sacked from a job where i couldnt phychially do it anyone because of my back problem . My youngest girl broke her arm falling out of bed .
Then my alcoholic Aunt and Uncle who i was trying to help and very close to died within 7 days of each other . They were only early fifties . It was awful police involved both times because it was at home .
Then bam a panic attack . Well i didnt know it was one at the time i thought it was a heart attack with the pain , tingles etc even called an ambulance !!!
I was so bad for months i went to stay with my parents so i didnt detress the kids seeing me like that . My doctors were a joke just wanted me on anti ds . Said to relax !!!!
My mums doctor fantastic , they set me up with a mentle health nurse who talked to me everyday on the phone . (espically when my baby bro tried to commit suicide, i was just starting to feel better then too )
I eventually got better but still lived in everyday fear that it would happen again . And so it did this Feb , so thats why im here .
I lost my 3yr old cousin, i had a miscarriage in December a week later my nan died . Thought i was coping but couldnt have been .
Hey im stopping this is kinder long sorry !!! I dont know how you use the message thingy on here will try nd figure it out .
Take care now and thanks again :)
