Hello all...
I'm thankful to find a place with real people to communicate with as I start my journey/healing process on Monday (June 11, 2007: Quit date).
I started smoking when I was about 12, I think while feeling rebellious and wanting to establish my idependence. I believed it made me look older and more accepted among my (smoking) siblings and peers. It was great fun to feel so grown up in those early years.
Now, over 30 years later, I certainly don't want to look any older, and the cigarettes have become a controlling and debilitating snare. (No big news to all of you! but it sure helps for me to write this, and just be truthful. Thanks:) I counted about 7 times that I've tried to quit, so this is number 8 - and I really hope the final quit! I'm trying to think positive, and be determined, but I'm a little afraid.
This time, I am taking Chantix. I've been on it for 6 days and chose to smoke for the first week while monitoring myself and following each step on their website. I am smoking much less, but I'm also feeling anxious because tomorrow is my last day to smoke and the Chantix site is helpful, but lacks the most important resource: real people like you!
I'm so glad I found you... and I look forward to joining a group of people that I admire for all the reasons I've been reading on this site today.
Scared but sincere,
mk
