Well, today is my One Hundred Eighty-Second day without Nicotine. That�s Six Entire Months Without a Cigarette or Nicotine.
This is not, by far, the first time I�ve attempted to quit. This IS, however, the first time I�ve found my quit. It�s the first time I�ve had moments of sanity in which the desire to smoke has been lost in the act of living.
To make this even more real, let me say these have been some of the most hectic months. We�ve bit the bullet and bought our dream house, in a jewel like setting in the Santa Cruz Mountains. I made it through the fear of having two mortgages (while we wait for our old house to sale) the move, and the continuing unpacking and the HORDES of contractors that are in and out the door (most of which seem to smoke) and, yeah, I�ve had moments when I�ve wanted a cigarette, but the desire hasn�t been strong enough that I�ve had to wait a full five seconds for it to pass.
I can finally drink good wine again, and it doesn�t make me want to have a cigarette.
I still meditate on a daily basis. I still remind myself that someone dies every eight seconds (statistically) from a nicotine-induced illness. In fact, nearly 2 million people have died from tobacco while I�ve been finding my sobriety. That helps keep me sane.
I still come to here and read, though I rarely have much time, as I deal with making our new home ours.
Even the act of painting and papering is novel now. I CAN smell the fresh smell of new paint, and it�s a wonderful smell. I CAN smell the fresh smell of refinished floors and the wax I�ve used on tile. More important, I CAN smell the forest, when I�m sitting out on the deck having my morning coffee.
It feels weird bragging about being smoke free, but I�m brimming over with joy, looking forward to the future without cigarettes. Hopefully, this will help someone else, or at least motivate someone else. Someone like the old me, who thought I�d never be able to quit� I had my first cigarette at the tender age of four, and was regularly stealing smokes by six, and had a good habit by fourteen. Here I sit, and I haven�t had the first cigarette in my thirty-fifth year.
I wish you all the success I have had these last six months.
Peace,
Jackey
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date
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Quit Meter
$217,706.75
Amount Saved
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Days: 8226
Hours: 13
Minutes: 5
Seconds: 24
Life Gained
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45833
Smoke Free Days
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870,827
Cigarettes Not Smoked
