I was experiencing crippling anxiety earlier this week. I had to meet a client for the first time and was just dreading it. I could barely function, which is really bad when you are expected to account for every minute of your day as billable time to one client or another.
I realized that it was a combination of factors that had led up to this straw breaking the camel's back, but I rode it out, getting plenty of rest (which could be interpreted as avoidance), being gentle to myself and accepting the symptoms. Trying to work down the thoughts that may have been worsening the condition.
On the day of the meeting, I went to the fitness centre and went on the treadmill for a while to dissipate some of the nervous tension. It may have backfired a bit as I was still perspiring when I got to the appointment which fuels further perspiration.
I wasn't far off with my premonition as the client was very demanding and exacting in their expected outcomes. I am just glad I didn't allow the peaking of anxiety to push me beyond continuing to show up for work and press through necessary tasks.
