I didn't really know where to post this topic- I guess this is kind of a specific situation though so here goes: As I've said in other posts, I have moved back in with my parents and have been living with them now ever since my breakdown 3 months ago. I have kept my apartment though with the hopes of returning to it. But I always chicken out. Anyways, my parents are planning to go away on vacation for 3 weeks starting Jan. 24- I will likely go back to my own place because it is so much closer to town and I live nearby grcery stores and stuff and my parents live kind of in the boonies. I have relied solely on my parents to help me- I don't want my friends to help or see me have an attack so I rarely go out with them. I am still unable to drive very far at all and have yet to do much of anything on my own- ie. waiting in a lineup at a grocery store, staying alone in my apartment overnight!! So I don't know how I will survive 3 weeks of being on my own!! I could beg them not to go, I guess, but I know that would just cause them to resent me more and they really need a break. I also think it might force me to have to be self- sufficient and force me out of my safety zones which may be a good thing. But I really don't know if I can handle it. I am already feeling anxious about it and it's 2 weeks away!! I really do not feel safe within myself- horrible feeling! I know most of you can relate in some way. Also, I have no computer so I wouldn't be able to come on here or to my chat site when I really needed help! Ahhh help!!!
Okay, I know this is long but if anyone has thoughts I would love to hear them.
Thank-you ,
Sarah
