OK,
First off, our cat is 19 years old and we found out last week she has cancer. It's tearing my wife up and breaking her heart and in-turn breaking mine because of hers. We had fluid drained from her twice and now she is on prednisone. The vet says if she gets worse again that we should euthanize her.
That - and this:
My latest obsession is thinking that there is something wrong with me. I have this uncomfortable feeling on my left side that either feels like indigestion or a muscle related issue. No pain. Just a little uncomfortable when standing still, but it does not bother me much at all when I sit or lean to the side. A friend of mine thinks it might be my psoas muscle that is connected near the vertabre. My chiropractor recommended a deep tissue massage.
My couch tic has also returned. I have several, like sniffing, clearing throat, pulling on my clothes, etc. The coughing one is typical. I know it is related to nervousness.
It's really weird. It just feels like a drag on my lower side by my left kidney. I have had kidney stones before, but this does not feel like a stone.
I was fine about it earlier in the day, but after leaving the chiropractor, I began to worry, again, because he did not know what it could be.
I went for blood work today (unrelated) because my doctor wants to know my cholesterol, etc. I am sure if something is wrong it will show. I really don't think anything is wrong, but I wish I could tell my obsessive and sometimes illogical mind this.
I know I am a worry wart and always build these things up in my head until the thoughts eventually go away.
OK, there, I feel a little better for venting. I know I usually vent about panic and/or some silly dire situation where I feel like I am going crazy. Maybe this can be filed under the same category.
Would welcome any thoughts.