Hello everyone,,, I am not sure what I am suppose to do here yet,,,,, I have panic disorder due to a mitral valve prolapse. I am unable to take beta blockers and I dont like taking antidepressants and xanax,,, due to a bad experience.. I started having panic attacks when my mother passed away in 93 and then my brother got killed in a truck accident in 94 and in between all that i filed for divorce. This was when i was diagnosed with the mvp.. i was put on a drug cocktail that later landed me in a drug rehab...at some point they finally went away,. and i have been fine til about a year ago.... My panic attacks now are not like heart attacks, but more like blood sugar issues and i have been to every ologist u can imagine and the people at the er know me by name now....i recently moved and have gone through 2 deaths, lost a job and learned that i was going to be a grandma only to learn that the baby will be put up for adoption.... the are alot of contributing factors,,,,i recently started therapy,,, when i can leave the house to go.... i do feel like i am on the down side of all of it....for three months after i lost my job i did not get out of bed or take a shower,,, i could not make it through my day without someone on the phone with me at all times,,,i am tired of this living nightmare,,,, and i am getting worn down,,, i used to be afraid of dying but now i dont care anymore,,,, no one around me understands what i am going through,,,,
