Hi Davit: Today I felt down because I was thinking about my friend who passed away, the one who died suddenly, unexpectedly. I went somewhere where she used to go and where she used to sit, it was empty. I looked at the empty place and thought she isn't coming back. It's so final.
Yes, sometimes I am down for a couple of days, but not because I feel limited. Usually it's about something I have no control over and I have to adjust myself, mentally, spiritually. The situation may stress me out because I have no control over it - can't change it - so I try and take good care of myself for that time period. I think it makes sense for you to take a couple of days just for you. I don't think those "two days" are a waste. They are an investment in your health, a positive thing. It's frustrating I guess when you have things you want to get done/finished.
Honestly, my anxiety and stress, if and when it happens, doesn't stop me from anything. It is an indicator for me to slow down and take it easy for awhile - like those two days, so I will put off what I don't have to do. If it is that wretched pain in the chest - tight chest - then I do stay and lie down and do relaxation/meditation exercises. It does surprise me though when it happens how fast it can happen and it can be frightening too. I'm usually overtired - those nights I don't sleep well - and I know exactly what it is. Luckily it doesn't last long, maybe 1/2 an hour, an hour at the most. I sometimes take a couple of Tylenol and it does help.
I have had nuclear heart test just before my surgery last summer and everything is fine. No worries about the heart, tho I do have high blood pressure, and that is why they wanted to do the heart test.
I will be very happy to get into the garden too. I used to not mind winter as much, now I find it long, wish the snow would disappear after February.
Every day life is not perfect, it is a struggle some days and other days it's a breeze. I think we are more vulnerable when we are ill, everything seems so much harder. I can only imagine your arthritic pain - I don't have that, maybe a bit in a wrist every now and then. I think you are wise in getting as good a sleep as you can so you can be in top shape for your coming heavy exposure. That's taking control of your health, a positive thing. You sound pretty smart to me, you wouldn't do anything to jeopardize your health. You're right too about this fast-paced world, it isn't always user friendly. The world has changed a great deal from our parents' generation. Mind you, each generation has its own challenges.
I am saying prayers for you. I hope you will continue to let us know how it is going. We support you and we do care
boy, aren't I writing lots these days?
