[font=Georgia]Well, I had to face another night of being awake all by myself. In addition to this I wasnt feeling so well and had to face some withdrawal symptoms from the ativan I had to take everyday for a few days there, as well as last nights sleeping pill. So I decided to get busy and first I gave my dog a bath, then I worked on my boyfriends birthday gift for 2 and a half hours or so. That was really difficult at first; I get nervous knowing that I must commit to something sometimes. I think for some reason it makes me feel stuck, and we all know how much we hate to feel confined in our current situations. Anyhow, eventually I got into the flow of working on his gift, but then out of nowhere I felt so sick to my stomach and so panicked I started feeling weird within my house again and like I was about to lose control. At this, I decided I would not let myself mope or take ativan tonight, and so I ate instead. Then I went and cleaned the kitty litter out and did more than a sink full of dishes. It was really difficult, but I did it. I decided to post this small success to help cheer me on for the rest of the night. Wish me luck! Go Maggie Go! LoL.
Ps.) I would like to specifically thank Isabella, Danielle and Diva for helping me gain some strength back and work through nights like these. Thank you so much- and thank you to everyone else too!
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