Thought i would post in the success section for once lol .
Well last few days have been mostly postive and very very busy . Will do the good bit first . Yesterday i spent the whole day out with my family on a picnic to a fantastic place . It was a clay museum and nature walks . And did those girls of mine keep me busy
. I went on my own with them on a huge assault course fit for the army while hubby and father-in-law looked at things men find interesting
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I popped a couple of painkillers and off i went talk about GI Jane haaaaaaaa , i must have looked a sight cos i saw myself in the mirror when i got in . I was my old self for the first time in years and i loved it . Just seeing their happy faces playing with the 'old crazy mummy' was priceless . Oh it did feel good , i honestly cant remember how long its been since i felt like that . Ok i did have the occassional anxious feelings and thoughts but i pushed them away each time they came .
Downside now , neighbour is being an not gunna swear so will say awkward . Im quite anxious as i live in a close with only 12 properties in so know most people here . He is going to them and speading nasty rumors , huh . Other bad thing is that i only have one friend , she is a neighbour here BUT she moved today . It was torture watching her go , i am really sad . My husband and me also helped her pack the van ( eeeek more muscles used , im paying for it now , still doc said to exercise ) . She is only moving a few miles away and gave me her new phone number so thats one thing at least . Not the same as having her on my doorstep as she was my only safe person outside my hubby .
I feel quite unsettled atm and have been sleeping awful , still waking at 1am to my horrible breathing but all whats going on im not suprised and im beginning to hurt abit anight now .
Well thats me done for now , take care everyone .
CD XX