Thank you. I know i could do it. I was actually also having a conversation with one of my friends. He is very pushy about alcojol being around Because he doesnt think i have a problem with it. Idk how... however, i told him today that i won't be drinking with him anymore and he said "oh, so if we go out to eat or have a drink, you wont have a drink with me" i said so... i really didn't think that should have been his respond.. ijust don't think he understands. I told him if he wanted to drink w who ever I'll be the designated driver and he seemed bothered that i wont be drinking with him anymore. As a friend i didn't think that should have been the response. Anyway, he and everyone else should respect that. I'm tired of making the same mistakes again and again..im tired of feeling remorseful, guilty, shameful, hungover, sorry, and im just ready to make that change especially after reading others peoples stories here. I don't wanna lose more than what i slready have.