Hi brokengirl, you are not alone in your struggle. I, too, like to drink alone to hide many things(do you think that is why we drink alone?) . I am 37, have 2 children, single, and sit at home on many nights with alcohol to "cure" my loneliness/boredom. You have started in a great place, lots of support, I relate to your heartache and helplessness, please, hang in there. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!