It`s the second day that i`m not smoking! Caught myself thinking probably one of the most ridiculous "addict-brain" thoughts.
I was on my way home from work, walking down the same street as always, just without a cigarette in my hand, trying to fight off a major craving and distract myself from thinking about how much I`m missing my usual post-work reward.
Suddenly my "addict-brain" starts whispering that I should get some cigarettes as soon as possible, because the longer I continue with this stupid attempt to quit, the more guilty I will feel when I will actually start smoking, because failing at a few-days attempt is much easier than the guilt of giving up after a few weeks!
This thought followed some memories of a previous attempt to quit, when I was actually thinking "why was I so stupid to try to quit, now it has been already 10 days that I`m not smoking, so it will be embarrassing if I start smoking again and I will feel guilty. Ah, if I would just have kept smoking and not tried to quit, I could be so happy now".
Basically, I can remember how last time I was regretting that I had continued my quit for so long! And my addict-brain was trying to switch all this around to "help me avoid the upcoming guilt and just start smoking again as soon as possible, when it`s still not that embarrassing to give up, because it has been only a few days!" Sounds very reasonable, doesn't it??
