Wow. I dont know why It wouldnt let me type in the test box to post, so I posted a blank message and it works now. Weird.
But its day 5 now! Everythings perfect. Today is the only day I had an actual craving for a cigarette. It was when I was learning and having really creative thoughts about what I was learning. Normally I would chain smoke while taking online classes for school while I listen to lectures. I had not been in school or studied anything online in years. Funny how those triggers still stick around till you confront them.
My nicotine consumption is going along the path I assumed. The first day I smoked three 48mg tank fulls of nicotine fluid. Same the next 2 days. After that I got over the hump and don't really feel the need to smoke that much nicotine. I don't even think about my nicotine addiction for an hour or so after waking up. Thats a good thing since I'd normally hop out of bed and drag myself to the garage for a smoke.
Today I smoked only two tanks. Not my choice or trying to taper down my consumption. Thats just how it goes. I'm noticing as the hours pass every new day i'm not vaporizing to support my habit or because I'm an addict. 60% of the time that I use it now is because I'm trying to avoid irritability or I am taking a few puffs as a stimulant to replace caffeine (that gives me anxiety) while I'm studying. Nicotine is a fantastic instant focusing tool while trying to concentrate on my video lectures.
So its day 5 and I've only had one craving for a real cigarette. The craving was not caused by withdrawal because I had the craving after taking a few puffs of vapor. It was trigger induced anyways. I still don't have any withdrawal if I go 6 hours without a cigarette as I did earlier today. Switching from tobacco to vapor pen is proving to me its greatness again (:
Does anybody think I should try and stretch my length of time not using the vapor pen? Maybe get familiar with regularly going 1 hour without using it, than in a week try 1.5 or 2 hours without it than try 3, 4 or 5+ hours without? I was planing on going cold turkey after 2 months and still carrying the pen with me in case of relapse so I don't do the dreadful thing of going back to tobacco.
I've even managed to avoid tobacco smoke almost completely these whole 4-5 days. I only get exposed to it in the car if the driver or another passenger is smoking. I just put my window down its not a big deal to me. Smells horrible :/ I'm also starting a 4k calorie diet + 36 grams protein per meal diet. With lots of healthy foods no junk! Water only. I need to regain 25 pounds so I can hit 130 pounds again. I'm deathly slim at 102 right now.
