Hi,
Its really hard for me to type, because im in a very bad state both physically and mentally, so im sorry if it doesnt make sense. I am a musician, and i recently had an extremely bad panic attack. Since then, I have felt like a ghost. I feel like if I go for a walk, I'd walk in front of a car, without thinking of the consiquences. its like im not alive.
I have a few things im particularly worried about, and id appreciate it if someone could tell me if its normal, and if it will pass. (and how long it will take)
1. I don't feel alive. I feel like a ghost.
2. I feel much less intelligent - like a big part of my brain has died, and i cant think clearly at all.
3.I feel like im losing my memory.
4. I usually have this urge to play music, but that urge is gone now. I've had to put my career on hold because i just cant play gigs. It feels like im losing my skills, and i cant remember my songs.
To sum up, im mentally emotionally and physically a wreck. Maybe I should just sleep, and wait for it to pass, but im soooo terrified that it wont. I just want everything to go back to normal.
Jim, 18 yrs old
