I can't believe I am almost through my first week! The first few days felt endless but yesterday actually went by pretty easily. I stayed busy all day with the farmer's market and butcher shop, then cooking and having friends over for dinner. The friends stayed until about 10 and then I did some work until midnight, when I got in bed with my book. I couldn't believe how LATE it felt and how EARLY it was compared to how late I would have stayed up on a weekend night if I were still smoking.
The cravings are better and worse than I expected at this point. Better in the sense that I do find myself going longer and longer periods of time without thinking about smoking, but worse because when those cravings do hit they are just awful. I have found it helpful to tell myself that they will go away in a few minutes, and they do, but oh my god, while they are happening I can't think about anything else and I want to scream.
I'm also still having some physical side effects. I'm not sleeping especially well, and my stomach is all screwed up. My husband suggested I cheat and take a Benadryl to get a good night's sleep, but I feel like that'll just take me backwards. How long did those last for you guys? When did you start to feel normal again?
Finally, I wanted to share something I saw on Facebook that I really liked, from a high school friend of mine who lost a hundred pounds in the past year. She said that someone told her, "A year from now, you'll wish you'd started a year ago." I keep thinking that I wish I was already on the other side of this thing, and then I remind myself of that quote -- a year from now I will be so glad I started a year ago.
