hi lauren,its just normal you are feeling lost you just had a very sad time.you are probably wise starting your meds again it will give you a little lift at this sad time.maybe you need to try something diffrent from child minding i take it thats what you do reading your posts.i know how you feel i have had the same thing happen twice,i was very uneasy around kids when this happened to me and it took time to get things back to some kind of normality .take care dont think you will be like this forever it does get easier
