Hey Sotired!
I'm glad you're still hanging in there! I know that it gets hard, especially when you feel like noone understands. It's especially hard when that someone is your spouse! I've had this for about 12 years now and it's only been the last year or so that my husband has tried being more supportive and understanding. We still have days where he tells me things like, "you're just doing this to yourself." But, he is getting better. When he gets like that I tell him, "I know you can't possibly understand what I'm going through so all I ask is that you pretend to." I know it gets hard but I truly hope you know that you're not alone because we are here for you!