I am NOT pregnant, I do NOT have an ectopic pregnancy, I have been sleeping better and trying to eat more. Why oh why am I still feeling so sick so tired so exhausted and having daily panic and shaky attacks? Some of the stress has been relieved and I foolishy thought I would feel better, I am as scared as ever, scared this burning crampy pain in my stomach is ovarian cancer, scared when my next monthly arrives it will be as bad as this late one and I will bleed and pass out? Scared there is something terribly wrong with me and I will die soon. I hate that my small son sees me lose control, through I try to hide it he is not stupid, my meds are failing me, the Zoloft is like taking a surgar pill, and the Klonopin does not even help so much anymore, just makes me weepy and depressed on top of panic, panic AND depression is the worst! I do not want to be happy even, just healthy and normal, I have given up on happy, just normal. I feel so old tired and worn-out I have not energy to "fight" this panic monster anymore, I relapsed in January and never thought it could go on so long again. I get so discouraged, my husband says "life is good don't worry" I feel like I am wasting my life on this panic, I so want it GONE and the more I try the worse it gets. Does anyone else ever feel so totally overwhelmed they just want to crawl in bed and never come out, you would think my son would be a good motivator, then I feel guilty and remorseful my son is being affected by this. Please pray for me. Debbie.
