I was doing good, then tonight I stole a cig from hubby and I smoked it, it was ucky..........why can't that be enough to make me never smoke again??????? I bought some bamboo toothpicks that are flavored, called JuJu stxs, they are wonderful.....I got them at quitsmoking someone invented them to help smokers. I like them, in fact I like them better than smoking now. I don't know why I wanted to test myself and see if I really hated smoking......a dumb thing to do. But it did reinforce that I do hate smoking now. I couldn't wait to put a juju stx in my mouth to get rid of the nasty taste from smoking. Okay still working on getting pregnant......another very valid reason to not smoke I know. This isn't just an excuse......I smoked for a long long long long long time........so its going to take a long long time to get used to the fact that I am now an EX SMOKER....but I am, I am sticking with my original quit date as Cinco De Mayo.....May 5th.....had several slips thats all.....Thats a new attitude for me, always before if I smoked after trying to quit, I just gave in and kept smoking, now I am looking at the occasional slip as just that, a slip. No big thing.....and after each slip I am more resolved to quit. I know the saying Not One Puff Ever......NOPE. I am there. I will be so excited to announce my pregnancy here at this forum......if it ever happens,. But if it dosn't, I am breathing much better, singing in my car, going for walks, spending my money on fun stuff.....yay!!!! okay so we're in a recession, I still feel justified to spend my money on stuff I know I don't really need, but just want......as a reward for not smoking. I am completely commited to never spending money on cigs ever agian,,,,,,,,,I hate making the tobacco companys rich,,,,,and if one less person is buying their product,,,,,then its a poke in their eye. This whole no smoking thing can actually be exciting, and a happy thing,,,,,,,a hard thing to do, but at the same time something worth being happy and excited about....... A baskin robbins Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!