Today i got up the kids were being good,but i had stuff to do ive been feeling funny the last few days..I felt uptight when i got up like the muscles in my chest,constant agitation,heart pounding.Like i was dying,felt like i was worthless,my mind was off,i had so many symptoms it would take me pages to tell u..most of thyem i cant even explain its just full terror,out of bofy,no comfort..im scared of tomorrow so im awake wanting to cry,but i cant do that because my emotoions are stuck on numb..i wish i could just come down,and relax,nothing works...im so upset right now,the house is asleep,and i let my family down by being weak again today..i cant beat this fear,its all to real,i lash out at my gf because she dosent understand..im on edge im rambling i know,how can i break this cycle,i have so much going for me,yet my body is stuck on edge,and feeling crazy all day...Pray for me as i pray for you guys im lonley,but i guess thats just life..Thhis to shall pass,we will survive..
Outlaw
