This from day 34 on a thread that I just dug up.
March 23, 2006
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WOW
I have done this new thing for 34 days (NOT SMOKING).
I had done the old thing for 13,140 days (SMOKING). Imagine that.
If each puff of each cigarette over 36 years was a single dose of mood altering substace that totals some 3,942,000 doses of some kind of mind bending drug. No wonder I have, strange dreams, my sleep is disrupted, I am a little moody, sometimes I am emotional, I am constantly hungry, (not really for food but for somthing to fill the gap), I might have a little trouble concentrating.
This voyage has provided a lot of information to me and although I am a relative newbie to being smoke free. Being this newbie I still like to share my thoughts and experience. There are days and moments that I sometimes wonder what is happening to me. Well nothing really is happening to me. What there is is that I have stepped into a new life, a life that I thought that I knew and I am realizing that really I did not know my life. I did not ever really know who the real me was. The me that was for so long clouded in addiction is slowly being revealed as the old habits, old ways and old patterns are stripped away.
I have no real imagery for what an adult who does not smoke is like. So I have to take resposibility and make that adult, the new me, into someone that I want to be. What a strange and wonderful opportunity that my addiction has provided to an almost 50 something. Here is an empty canvas, create the new you. WOW, what an awesome task and what a wonderful opportunity.
I am glad that there are others to share this journey with. I am glad that others care enough here to tell their stories, and show parts of themselves I might not typically get to see. From seeing the parts of all of the varied and multi faceted people who post into this Stop Smoking Centre Forum I get to see, experience and learn about the kind of person I would like to be. I get the ultimate opportunity to choose what I want and what I don't want. That is where my responsibility lies, in making that choice and in deciding to be real and letting the new me come forward.
I am sorry that sometimes I have been moody and I know that there are times for me that this is really a white knuckle ride and ultimately what I am working so dilegently at is creating this new life
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I am amazed I actually am living that new life...
:)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]2/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 728
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 18,200
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $6,188.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 123 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 1