im happy people are using this thread,not just reading it,but adding to it thats how we grow hopefully togther..God Bless all of you i relate..

Hi Stacy I would love to talk. Sometimes you more support when talking straight with each other rather than thru here. My Doctor wanted to put me in the hospital again today but I refused. I just don't see how a couple of days there is any different from taking my meds here. He seems to think its cause I won't be scared there but HELLO...I'm scared where ever I go. Are your meds working for you ? He doubled the dosage on my meds today and changed my xanax to klonopin... I think the xanax just does not last in my system long enough to relax me. Please feel free to e-mail me direct...at OBrendie@aol.com and I am 41

Hi OBrendie I have had the strangest fears. I've had fears that I won't be able to go to sleep, I'm afraid to be in my own home alone, I also have the obsessive compulsive disorder. I too would like to know when this will end. Mine stared way back in May but they would go away, then in August I had a full blown attack. Heart pounding, panic attacks would be non-stop. Sweating, headaches, dizziness, feel like my heart is going to come out of my chest, chest would hurt, have trouble breathing, to where I just knew I was having a heart attack. I have the knot in my stomach, I did have the nausea and vomiting. I'm taking lorazepam, xanax, geodon, and a sleeping pill that I can't remember the name of. If you ever want to talk just let me know, maybe talking one on one might help. By the way, I'm 35. Stacey

Hi Sam My heart rate is intense. It pounds so hard that I can feel it in my hands but mostly upper right and in my throat. I check my pulse all the time to see if it is racing or not but sometimes its fast and sometimes its slow but the pounding heart beat is still there. Today is a bad day for me. I hate it !!!!! I am so scared to go anywhere and I fear that I am going to loose control. I see my doctor again today but I know what he is going to say. Take the medication...I have to wait until it gets into my system before it will start working. I have been taking it for 8 days now and truth.... I am going crazy. I never had patience and I have always been a strong minded, independent person. Now I have to rely on others to even take me to the store. I can't wait for my happy ending to come. You can always e-mail me direct if you like

can someone explain what cognitive behavioral thrapy is? Is it different than just behavioral therapy? theem9

Sam, I have/had fast and slow hr as well as beating like crazy. I could feel my pulse anywhere, finger tip, palm, forearm, if it was quiet I could hear it in my head. I will tell you the crazyest is when I have my BP checked when my pulse is beating quick, its like my heart is in my head I can hear every beat clear as a bell.

Hey, with your heart pounding, was it a fast h/r and then was slow and then fast, always fast or you could feel it beating out of your chest?

Hi Outlaw My anxiety is also constant. When it first started I did not know why my heart was pounding 24/7 and I was admitted to the phyc ward. I only stayed here for one night just being there I thought that would cure me but when I got home the pounding did not stop. It almost broguth me to my own death...just desperate to get rid of the feeling. It has been 31/2 months for me now and I am finally on some medication as well as xanax to help with the symptoms. I have been off work though but boy do I hate just sitting at home. You need to discuss with your doctor your symptoms and the symptoms from the medications. in the past 3 months I have tried. Lexapro, Paxil, Well Butrin, Zoloft, Depakote, Treliptal and now I am on Lithium and Lamictal along with the xanax. I have been on this medication for 8 days now and I am praying to God that is helps me. I want to get back to work by the end of the month. My heart palpitations came from too much stress... I stressed myself out from work.. worked 15 hour days for 3 years trying to barry myself in work to cover my personal problems .... well now I am trying to focus just on me and what makes me happy. Good luck

I hear you Pete. That is my biggest fear too and a lot of others...I just got back from the ER yet again. I don't know what to do anymore... Sam S

My panic issues have been at the forefront from September 1st of this year. At the start it was really intense and I have on and off weeks where one week I might be fairly good and almost feel normal then other times I have felt like I have gone through a panic attack/or general anxiety for a couple weeks long, and it just exhausts me. I am fairly busy at work and it doesn't effect my work all that much with the exception of not being able to concentrate completely sometimes because my mind is on my health. If you read my other post called My Story I have had quite a few symptoms, which I did forget to add a tightness in the center of my inside forearm and just above the inside of my elbow as well as in the back of my leg above the knee and below the hip. My nephew who won't let me leave him alone because we have so much playing together doesn't notice my anxiety but I do get anxious after playing for a bit.. I dont know why this maybe stems from the fact that I am going to be a parent in May 2005. I am 28 and worried about my kid seeing this as well. My wife is worried about me and I know that stress isn't all that great for a pregnant woman but she had went through a bout of depression when she was younger and understands. My biggest fear is without a doubt is death, death of myself or someone close to me. In fact I can barely read or watch tv where someone dies. Unless they die from just plain old age it just gets my mind racing. No fear of losing money, going crazy etc or taking meds, I know how strong willed and stubborn person I am, I know I will be myself completely again I just don't know when, although it seems to be improving as time passes. I think time helps me heal because all of the things I thought I was dying off would have killed me by now. Its funny I actually worked for 7 years a a mental health facility, where mood disorders was a large department, I always respected mental health problems because I seen them quite often but let me tell you that I have 10 times the respect for these problems then I did before now that I have had them myself. I work in IT but at the facility the researches/psychiatrists/psychologists/counsellors were HUGE believers of cognitive behavioural therapy, In fact I don't think there was a single