Hi JM, I agree with Rhonnie you should really try this program. Just have some patience with it as with any other type of therapy.
Also I too am sorry you went through what you did in the past & the people on this site are very supportive even though sometimes opinions differ. I apologize to you if I have seemed rude to you in the past. I hope you are doing better now & if I can help in any way I'd be glad to.
Chanda