Joy,
Hellow there, Just read your post, so sorry you are having such a hard time!!!!!!!! I still do at times with the smoking, sometimes it is such a hard journey, and I do have times I get so worn out fighting this addiction, but I can't give up, I just can't, when it hits hardest I go for a walk, or go to sleep or go get my grandaughter, who is just 1 years old, boy can she help to not think of bad things. I can really feel your sorrow and how hard you are working to overcome this, I am sending you much pixie dust many hugs and prayers.
I put you in my buddie list on the IM if ever you want to chat. I am here!
Bobbi
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/27/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 131
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,930
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $327.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 36