I hope this can help some people who are feeling really desperate. I used to post on here almost everyday, I was basically housebound ( at my parents house at 26 yrs old!) and I was constantly anxious with daily panic attacks. I couldn't sleep, eat ( I lost 25 lbs) and I had to leave college and lost many friends as well. I really thought the panic would kill me and I was too scared to take meds.
I did start taking meds eventually and though it's been a very rough road, I have been slowly rebuilding my life. I am working a few days a week, living on my own again and even able to drive. I still have some anxiety and palpitations and strange symptoms at times, but on the whole I'm much much better. I am planning to go back to college in the fall too, which is pretty scary.
I am living and doing things without anxiety- I honestly never thought I'd have a life again.
So if you are suffering and feel like there is no hope, please don't give up! There is no magic cure or quick fix- for me it just took a lot of self acceptance- I had to learn to be patient with myself, I have an amazing doctor and the support of well- meaning, however not very understanding friends and family.
I haven't been to this site lately but it helped me so much to get through those horrible months of my life. It's so great to know you're not alone.
I wish everyone the best in their struggle and know that it can get better!!
Sarah
