hopeful: another great book is called "Depression is a Choice" I know the title throws people a little. But this was the book that also helped me finally kick it. I still keep it on hand if I have a down day because it makes me feel so much better. the author is Curtiss.. try indigo or chapters online if they don't carry it. there's some great postings in the forum "challenging your thoughts" that I think would really help you. the discussion is with nurseboy and myself. Hang in there... I am living, breathing, proof that you can do it... you can beat it!!!!
write back because communicating is the best way out of fear. Staying locked inside of yourself puts you in a scary place. Keep reaching out.
Lisa N