Yes, Quit
Life hands us disappointments, oftentimes in the hands of those closest to us. But, that is true whether we smoke or not. The closest I've come to slipping was in reaction to that kind of thing - twice, same person. I have responded to that person the best I know how and now have decided to give the relationship a rest. Maybe for a little while, maybe forever. But in the process I definitely had to use almost everything in my toolbox to keep from smoking. Breathing, frenetic self-talk (I will not smoke, I will not smoke, I will not smoke, Smoking will not change the situation, Smoking will not change the situation, Smoking will not change the situation, etc, etc), a yell or two by myself, walking, and then some relaxation and my form of praying.
During these two episodes, and another notable one with my son, I realized how much I had depended on cigarettes to avoid feeling emotions I didn't want to feel. Now I try to get under the anger to see what I really am feeling. Not always a happy feeling, but you know what? It hasn't destroyed me, and in the end, when I can express the real emotion, or at least acknowledge it to myself if I think I will get another hurtful response, I feel better. And then I feel even better because I didn't cave to the smoke.
Hope you have found a way to deal with your sister's latest action.
And great to hear you and the boys are excited and looking forward to the trip. I wish I was there..I'd go!
-aloha
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/22/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 85
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,400
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $578.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 11 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9
